More Stubborn Than a Mule

I am. I really am. And it sucks. Pride is such a big thing for me. I have self control, really I do, but it's just my damn natural stubbornness that gets in the way of things. For example, not a specific one, but someone will say something and I'll oppose their opinion just because I naturally have this mind set that everyone else is wrong. I know you're not wrong but my damn pride will not let me admit that at times and makes you all mad at me. And then the good old fashioned Alicia charisma will jump in and try to save the day and then you forget you were mad at me. I wonder how long I can keep that up. Charisma can die out, and when it does I'll just be stuck with this stupid pride of mine that at the end of the day is completely worthless. It's just me and my damn stubborn pride.

But see? I'm not like super proud and shit cuz I'm totally admitting it. But then it's like those bitchy ass girls that are all like, "I'm a bitch and you love it. I'm going to hurt you and talk shit, so I apologize in advanced. Let's be friendssss betchh." Help me Lord with my damn pride, it just brings me down. AND being stubborn makes me lose my temper and then we'll have a scary encounter with the Alicia I never wish to introduce you to.

I just hate how much of myself I reveal publicly. It's like I have no sense of privacy or something. I really hope no one read this. I know you're thinking, "if you don't want anyone to know your shit, why post it publicly on the internet?!" ughhh, I just can't sit with someone and tell them these kinds of things so I have to write out my issues. And this is the one place my mother won't look. Maybe I don't have self control after all.