The Sweet Smell of Coughdrops

I'm sick again. For the third time this month. Damn. I have coughdrop breath xD

No mothatruckin' lie, I've been listening to disco music like crazy. And I love it. No lie. That just adds on to the endless list of things that people find to be weird about me. Am I really THAT weird? So what if I like flat soda & melted ice cream, ya bastards! To add on to the variety, I've been listening to a lot of Daddy Yankee too. Hah, is that normal enough for you?

So the other night my parents were having a talk about ethnicity groups and shit blah blah AND THEN I was like, "I wanna visit my grandmammmaaaa" and they were like, "you couldn't last a day." Couldn't last a day? I used to practically live with her! And then they babbled on about how I was too white washed and that Mexicans disgust me and I got really pissed. AND THEN, my mom had the nerve to tell me that Mexico wasn't my hometown, that it was fuckin' Orange County cuz that's where I was born. She literally told me I didn't belong. Okay... being born in the United States only makes me a citizen, it doesn't take away my Mexican ethnicity. OH, AND THEN, my family in Mexico call me gringa and gabacha and shit and my immediate family calls me white wtf. DO I NOT BELONG ANYWHERE?! And my dad, just to fuel the fire a tad more, told me the chain of Aztecan ancestors in our family was broken when I was born because I was "infected by the white man". That can't be true unless my mother had sex with an actual white guy and he was my real dad. But that can't be true either because the physical and internal similarities with my father are far too obvious. I love that guy, I really do. I make it seem as if I don't and that's not true.

SORRY, THAT SHIT WAS BOTHERING ME.

More Stubborn Than a Mule

I am. I really am. And it sucks. Pride is such a big thing for me. I have self control, really I do, but it's just my damn natural stubbornness that gets in the way of things. For example, not a specific one, but someone will say something and I'll oppose their opinion just because I naturally have this mind set that everyone else is wrong. I know you're not wrong but my damn pride will not let me admit that at times and makes you all mad at me. And then the good old fashioned Alicia charisma will jump in and try to save the day and then you forget you were mad at me. I wonder how long I can keep that up. Charisma can die out, and when it does I'll just be stuck with this stupid pride of mine that at the end of the day is completely worthless. It's just me and my damn stubborn pride.

But see? I'm not like super proud and shit cuz I'm totally admitting it. But then it's like those bitchy ass girls that are all like, "I'm a bitch and you love it. I'm going to hurt you and talk shit, so I apologize in advanced. Let's be friendssss betchh." Help me Lord with my damn pride, it just brings me down. AND being stubborn makes me lose my temper and then we'll have a scary encounter with the Alicia I never wish to introduce you to.

I just hate how much of myself I reveal publicly. It's like I have no sense of privacy or something. I really hope no one read this. I know you're thinking, "if you don't want anyone to know your shit, why post it publicly on the internet?!" ughhh, I just can't sit with someone and tell them these kinds of things so I have to write out my issues. And this is the one place my mother won't look. Maybe I don't have self control after all.

Back To School Y'all

Now that lip sync is over, my priorities list has rearranged itself in the most awkward thing I've ever seen. I'm so uncomfortable with it.

I can't say I'm disappointed with the way lip sync turned out. If I did, I'd be lying. 2nd place?!?! I thought for sure we'd get third. We really pulled it out of our ass.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SnozmmWDyZs



This weekend was delicious but I still have not perfected the art of completely ignoring something that ruined your weekend. Like, you know, incidents that scar you for the rest of the week. I can't ignore shit like that. BESIDES a few mishaps on Sunday, yes my weekend was delicious and I'm looking forward to many more like it.